December 22, 2015
Sometimes we just feel “Unpretty” and we cannot explain it.
It is just a moment in time that we can actually say “I woke up like this!”
And I am not even talking about the way we look physically.
I am not talking about having a “bad hair” day, or about our jeans fitting too tight on that day.
I am not referring to the big white pimple in the middle of our chin or the favorite sweater with the big stain on the front of it.
I’m talking about the little “demons” that exist within us that make us question our passion, question our purpose, question our existence and make us feel like we don’t make a difference.
The voices that are in our heads that make us think that we are not “good” enough… that we are not “worthy” enough and that we are not “deserving” enough.
The thoughts that are resonating in our minds that make us feel that eternal happiness is being attacked. It’s as though the core of our being is really a weapon of personal destruction.
The weight that we feel in our heart makes us feel that we are not strong enough to get through the day.
That somehow we are not powerful enough to make the right decisions for ourselves.
That we are not resilient enough to just to bend and not break. To only feel a bit damaged and not totally destroyed.
You see, on those “Unpretty” days that we feel weak is when we think that we need our masks to cover up the pain, to shield the heartache, and to conceal our confusion.
And to be able to smile and pretend that we care.
We don’t want the world to know how we really feel…that we are hurting inside and doubtful about the situation that we are living in.
And so we feel “Unpretty” by ourselves, and it is hard and it is painful.
If we remember to lean on our triple shields of Grace, Faith, and Mercy, then we will know that “this too shall pass.”
And that “tomorrow is just a day away.”
During that moment when we feel alone deserted, confused, unwanted, unloved, misunderstood, and in some cases depressed, we have to remember to keep the Faith to make it through the day.
We need to keep in mind that God doesn’t put us through what he knows we cannot handle, and he has already ordered our steps.
We are just traveling along the road that he has paved for us.
Yes, I get it.
I know it’s hard, and I know it hurts because I’ve “been there I’ve done that” and I still go through it, but the only thing that keeps my chin up, and my eyes straight ahead is knowing that I belong to God, and I am walking along the road that was chosen just for me.
Allow yourself to feel.
Allow yourself to be.
Allow yourself to know that everything is going to be alright.
Because God is truly “on your side.”
I am. I can. I will. I do.
Even if I am “Unpretty” today.
Lesson: Some days are just tougher than others….Get Over It, Get Through It and Keep it Moving….With God, Grace, Faith and Mercy on your side you will feel “Pretty” again.